季节又来到了我的身旁....
最近的天气的确时常在下雨...
每当在下雨时独自驾车,总会有寂寞的感觉...
再加上最近身边的朋友甚至是自己也碰上了''季节''...
说明了是季节嘛,当然是避不开了...
唯有看自己要不要选择用"雨伞"去保护自己...
还是要被季节把自己也给跨到...
好像有点语无伦次...
可是此刻的我真的有这种感觉...
觉得身边的事情都像季节般的...
说来就来,让人毫无防备之心...
不管平时是多么的坚强,也会有被季节攻击的时候...
不管平时是多么的镇定,也会有被季节吓倒的时候...
不管平时是多么的安稳,也会有被季节震动的时候...
季节是否为你带来开心呢?还是为你带来伤心?
人总是那么的矛盾...
当他或她需要你的时候,他或她必定定时定刻的寻找你...
因为你是他或她的代替品...
当他或她不需要你的时候,他或她必定减少寻找你...
因为你真的是他或她的代替品..
也许这一切都是正常的吧...可是对我来说却不是...
我不想让别人成了我的代替品,更不希望成为别人的代替品...
所以...学习不矛盾,不自私,不存任何心机是很重要的...
若你的生活里总是带有心机的,处处去博取别人的可怜;
那我真的觉得你的生活是可悲的...
因为你总是在依赖别人,根本没有为自己着想...
也没有为身边的人着想...
最近的我心情又来起伏不定了...
我好像又迷失了方向.....
该向左还是向右呢...?
该选择面对还是逃避呢...?
该选择包容还是伤害呢...?
该尝试还是放弃呢...?
我要的是....什么啊.....
是时候睡觉了...语无伦次到一个程度.... >.<
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
im officially missing you...
All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go
'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I've fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you
Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...
All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
That I-I'm officially missing you
Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you
Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...
It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin' you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I'm officially missin' you
thanks for mimi coz send me this song..
it's really a good way to describe my feelings right now..
driving back alone all the time...
everytime i wish that the one that beside me is you...
and today..it's rainiy day...
after all the discussion has been done smoothly...
is time to home...on the way home,this song playing repeatly...
all the memories keep on appeared in my mind..
what's on your mind right now...?
will it be the same like me...?
Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go
'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I've fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you
Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...
All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
That I-I'm officially missing you
Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you
Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...
It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin' you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I'm officially missin' you
thanks for mimi coz send me this song..
it's really a good way to describe my feelings right now..
driving back alone all the time...
everytime i wish that the one that beside me is you...
and today..it's rainiy day...
after all the discussion has been done smoothly...
is time to home...on the way home,this song playing repeatly...
all the memories keep on appeared in my mind..
what's on your mind right now...?
will it be the same like me...?
im officially missing you....
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
im still alive!
i'm still alive =P
semester break for 2 weeks...
the 2 weeks holiday was like d-e-a-d holiday for me man >< omg!
because dont have time to meet up with my friendssss!!
the one thing i feel happy is went up to cameron with elaine,gina n liang!wuhoo!
what a nice place n a good time for me n myself...
thanks for liang to be the driver =)
although is 2D1N,but it's ad enough for me..
the fresh air make me feel better n is like recharge my brainsss ^^
after cameron trip,is time for me to start working at a friend's place..
data entry,phone calling,everyday i repeart the same thing...
what to do...i need vitamin M so so so much...
dad's cant work anymore...i need to take k of myself...
can't spend much anymore...
aikz,quite suffer when looking friends around me spend with no worries..
but still...thanks God for blessing me...
sometimes when i really really have no $ at all,
brother or some part time job will comes to me...
nice right?pray hard n you will get this too...
although i cant buy any new clothes that on sales,but then...
still ok bah...at least im not naked ma XD hahaha
just...cant control when think about food!!omg..
spend much on food n movie >.<
need to control ad...
work for almost 10 or 13 days for the data entry job..
then busy in helping a church member's wedding...
feel happy and touching when the couple are walking into the church,
holding each other hand,put the super sweet smile on their face,
the music n lighting is on n everything just perfect....
with the blessing from all of the family and friends...
so niceee =)
yea la,i admit that i got the feeling of 'hen ga' la...
cant stop thinking about my future...lol..
when can i hold my husband's hand ...
when can i have my own family with 3 to 4 children..
hahaha...those that know me ad knew that this is my plan XD
dear lord,i pray that u will bless me to have a good husband n healthy children!AMEN!
oh yea..we celebrate elaine aka my best friend/classmate in the world birthday!!!
it's a super belated celebration,but hope u like it ya my dear!!
thank u ah liang for helping me to buy ur gf's present =)
thou there is no more purple colour,but still got the brown one =P
n yea..all the daipat gang (except daipat hao) gather at a place for preparation..
haha..yea,prepared for the tang lung that we going to light up..
that's the surprise for the belated birthday girl!!wuhoo..
we standby in front of her house,then call her out,n we sing the bday song!!haha
dear ar,although the plan got a bit bocor ad la..hahhaa...
but then hope u like it n forgive us for the late celebration ya..
finally u got ur own and nice purse to use ad =) all the best for u!!
there is no full stop in our friendship =)
well...after all of these...fun,work,wedding,celebration...
the 2nd semester started!!meaning that ASSIGNMENTS waiting me!!
the most thing that i worry for now is results man..
lord,i pray that everyone of us can get all pass!!bless us!!
well,1st week as usual is no class one..
me n elaine skipped the class and work at klcc convention center for the jewelry fair =P
worked for 4 days,11 to 6pm..too bad that cant work at the same counter with elaine..
but still having fun and it's another experience for us =)
working with hong kong people,see the way they handle the work,
the way they solve the problem,the way they talk...
nice to meet you all =) take care ya~~
is time to get myself prepared and attending class as a good student XD
lecture...tutorial...practical...lots of assignment lorrr ><
new lecturer n tutor teaching us...still haven get used with them...
some of them are funny,lame,bored...can we tahan for the 14 weeks?!
just hope that everything can go smooth...
and the results will be fine...
yea..that's all for my current life...
quite tired actually...driving here n there alone...><
what to do..life still goes on...n yea..im still alive!!
dear dai pat gang...please take good care ya!!
im sure that the yamcha session is going to re-start SOON XD
dear shapo hsia,please sleep earlier n take k too k...
we will go play play with the juvin n take a lot of picture XD
semester break for 2 weeks...
the 2 weeks holiday was like d-e-a-d holiday for me man >< omg!
because dont have time to meet up with my friendssss!!
the one thing i feel happy is went up to cameron with elaine,gina n liang!wuhoo!
what a nice place n a good time for me n myself...
thanks for liang to be the driver =)
although is 2D1N,but it's ad enough for me..
the fresh air make me feel better n is like recharge my brainsss ^^
after cameron trip,is time for me to start working at a friend's place..
data entry,phone calling,everyday i repeart the same thing...
what to do...i need vitamin M so so so much...
dad's cant work anymore...i need to take k of myself...
can't spend much anymore...
aikz,quite suffer when looking friends around me spend with no worries..
but still...thanks God for blessing me...
sometimes when i really really have no $ at all,
brother or some part time job will comes to me...
nice right?pray hard n you will get this too...
although i cant buy any new clothes that on sales,but then...
still ok bah...at least im not naked ma XD hahaha
just...cant control when think about food!!omg..
spend much on food n movie >.<
need to control ad...
work for almost 10 or 13 days for the data entry job..
then busy in helping a church member's wedding...
feel happy and touching when the couple are walking into the church,
holding each other hand,put the super sweet smile on their face,
the music n lighting is on n everything just perfect....
with the blessing from all of the family and friends...
so niceee =)
yea la,i admit that i got the feeling of 'hen ga' la...
cant stop thinking about my future...lol..
when can i hold my husband's hand ...
when can i have my own family with 3 to 4 children..
hahaha...those that know me ad knew that this is my plan XD
dear lord,i pray that u will bless me to have a good husband n healthy children!AMEN!
oh yea..we celebrate elaine aka my best friend/classmate in the world birthday!!!
it's a super belated celebration,but hope u like it ya my dear!!
thank u ah liang for helping me to buy ur gf's present =)
thou there is no more purple colour,but still got the brown one =P
n yea..all the daipat gang (except daipat hao) gather at a place for preparation..
haha..yea,prepared for the tang lung that we going to light up..
that's the surprise for the belated birthday girl!!wuhoo..
we standby in front of her house,then call her out,n we sing the bday song!!haha
dear ar,although the plan got a bit bocor ad la..hahhaa...
but then hope u like it n forgive us for the late celebration ya..
finally u got ur own and nice purse to use ad =) all the best for u!!
there is no full stop in our friendship =)
well...after all of these...fun,work,wedding,celebration...
the 2nd semester started!!meaning that ASSIGNMENTS waiting me!!
the most thing that i worry for now is results man..
lord,i pray that everyone of us can get all pass!!bless us!!
well,1st week as usual is no class one..
me n elaine skipped the class and work at klcc convention center for the jewelry fair =P
worked for 4 days,11 to 6pm..too bad that cant work at the same counter with elaine..
but still having fun and it's another experience for us =)
working with hong kong people,see the way they handle the work,
the way they solve the problem,the way they talk...
nice to meet you all =) take care ya~~
is time to get myself prepared and attending class as a good student XD
lecture...tutorial...practical...lots of assignment lorrr ><
new lecturer n tutor teaching us...still haven get used with them...
some of them are funny,lame,bored...can we tahan for the 14 weeks?!
just hope that everything can go smooth...
and the results will be fine...
yea..that's all for my current life...
quite tired actually...driving here n there alone...><
what to do..life still goes on...n yea..im still alive!!
dear dai pat gang...please take good care ya!!
im sure that the yamcha session is going to re-start SOON XD
dear shapo hsia,please sleep earlier n take k too k...
we will go play play with the juvin n take a lot of picture XD
Sunday, September 27, 2009
无题...
为什么无题?因为...我也不知道...
此刻的我...心痛...心乱..心烦...
哭也哭过了...努力的在让自己不去想...
不断的打扫房间...不断的提醒自己不去想...
一切都是因我而起吧...
一切都是我的错...
一切都是因我自私...
一切的一切都是因我而造成...
问题的出现总是有原因的...
原因的来源总是来自彼此...
彼此的了解总是来自内心...
内心的敞开总是来自自己...
始终...一切的来源还是回到自己...
眼泪啊眼泪...可不可以暂时停止操作啊...
贝儿啊贝儿...可不可以暂时停止操作啊...
此刻的我...真的好想念我可爱的朋友们..
更想念的是.................
此刻的我...心痛...心乱..心烦...
哭也哭过了...努力的在让自己不去想...
不断的打扫房间...不断的提醒自己不去想...
一切都是因我而起吧...
一切都是我的错...
一切都是因我自私...
一切的一切都是因我而造成...
问题的出现总是有原因的...
原因的来源总是来自彼此...
彼此的了解总是来自内心...
内心的敞开总是来自自己...
始终...一切的来源还是回到自己...
眼泪啊眼泪...可不可以暂时停止操作啊...
贝儿啊贝儿...可不可以暂时停止操作啊...
此刻的我...真的好想念我可爱的朋友们..
更想念的是.................
Sunday, September 20, 2009
与自己的时间...
考试终于都过了...终于可以暂时把笔记抛到伦敦去了...呵呵...
假期并非过得比想象中开心,也许是需要做工吧...
好多东西想要做的都好像很难完成...
好多东西想要解决的都无法找到合适的时间...
终于有少许的时间让我休息,让我给自己一些时间清静一下...
金马伦高原的确是个很舒服的地方...
到了那里,我真的很不舍得回来,因为实在太舒服了...
空气很清新,环境很舒服...
虽然一直在下雨,可是雨水却让我觉得很舒服...
冷冷的风迎面吹来也让我觉得很舒服...
好像可以暂时把自己的问题冻结,
好像可以暂时把不开心的时刻冰结,
好像真的可以什么都不想的享受那一切来自大自然的空气...
问题存在着,疑惑存在着,挣扎存在着,矛盾存在着...
多么的希望风风雨雨可以把这一切存在着的都带走...
为什么说与自己的时间呢?
因为好想让自己的心和脑都清静下来...
让自己好好的休息....
虽然我真的很没有钱到一个程度,可是为了让自己真的可以休息,
我选择了去这一次的旅程...
因为真的很想给自己一些的时间...
所以...请别觉得为什么男友没有陪我一起去...
因为...再甜蜜也需要一些私人的空间与时间...
这...是我的原则;总觉得自己是需要空间来与自己相处的...
也许我真的觉得很累了吧...
很多事情的发生让我觉得很难去面对...
家里的问题一直存在着...让我觉得很压力,很难受...
很多很多的事情都处在起伏的状况之下...
外人总觉得这一切根本不是什么问题...
对我而言,问题是要解决的,如果一直去避开问题, 那只会造成伤害...
而我真的很不想逃避一切的问题...
这两天里面我还蛮开心的,虽然是简单的渡过...
可是我想了很多...我也做了决定...
我相信我是可以撑下去的...嗯...一定可以...
假期并非过得比想象中开心,也许是需要做工吧...
好多东西想要做的都好像很难完成...
好多东西想要解决的都无法找到合适的时间...
终于有少许的时间让我休息,让我给自己一些时间清静一下...
金马伦高原的确是个很舒服的地方...
到了那里,我真的很不舍得回来,因为实在太舒服了...
空气很清新,环境很舒服...
虽然一直在下雨,可是雨水却让我觉得很舒服...
冷冷的风迎面吹来也让我觉得很舒服...
好像可以暂时把自己的问题冻结,
好像可以暂时把不开心的时刻冰结,
好像真的可以什么都不想的享受那一切来自大自然的空气...
问题存在着,疑惑存在着,挣扎存在着,矛盾存在着...
多么的希望风风雨雨可以把这一切存在着的都带走...
为什么说与自己的时间呢?
因为好想让自己的心和脑都清静下来...
让自己好好的休息....
虽然我真的很没有钱到一个程度,可是为了让自己真的可以休息,
我选择了去这一次的旅程...
因为真的很想给自己一些的时间...
所以...请别觉得为什么男友没有陪我一起去...
因为...再甜蜜也需要一些私人的空间与时间...
这...是我的原则;总觉得自己是需要空间来与自己相处的...
也许我真的觉得很累了吧...
很多事情的发生让我觉得很难去面对...
家里的问题一直存在着...让我觉得很压力,很难受...
很多很多的事情都处在起伏的状况之下...
外人总觉得这一切根本不是什么问题...
对我而言,问题是要解决的,如果一直去避开问题, 那只会造成伤害...
而我真的很不想逃避一切的问题...
这两天里面我还蛮开心的,虽然是简单的渡过...
可是我想了很多...我也做了决定...
我相信我是可以撑下去的...嗯...一定可以...
Sunday, September 13, 2009
oh man......>.<
i never feel like this before....
lying on my bed like a dead body...
walking around like a zombie...
eating plain porridge like an old man...
shitting like no tomorrow....yewwwwwwww~~
oh man....i really feel like dying la...
tomorrow last paper ad...i still want to have fun ar~~
fever,dizzy,shitting,vomit=food poisoning >.<"""
lord,please healed me with your hand....
i need to study...i want movie...i want alots of thing ar....
but not sick!!!!please.....get well soon...
lying on my bed like a dead body...
walking around like a zombie...
eating plain porridge like an old man...
shitting like no tomorrow....yewwwwwwww~~
oh man....i really feel like dying la...
tomorrow last paper ad...i still want to have fun ar~~
fever,dizzy,shitting,vomit=food poisoning >.<"""
lord,please healed me with your hand....
i need to study...i want movie...i want alots of thing ar....
but not sick!!!!please.....get well soon...
Sunday, September 6, 2009
左右为难...
左右为难的感觉真的很不好受...
当决定权在自己的手里时,很多时候都要顾虑很多方面才能做下一个决定..
很多时候都听到别人说做决定要潇洒点,不需顾虑那么多...
可是...往往我要做的决定却是要顾虑很多方面的...
因为...我清楚知道我做的每一个决定都可能会伤害到某一方,或是伤害到自己..
不知道从何时开始,我的生活里好像都环绕着做决定的时侯...
我开始对决定这两个字感到厌倦...
我开始觉得决定这两个字是离不开我的生活了...
不管小事,大事,严重,不严重,重要,不重要...
这一切都变成我的决定...
当决定权在自己的手里时,很多时候都要顾虑很多方面才能做下一个决定..
很多时候都听到别人说做决定要潇洒点,不需顾虑那么多...
可是...往往我要做的决定却是要顾虑很多方面的...
因为...我清楚知道我做的每一个决定都可能会伤害到某一方,或是伤害到自己..
不知道从何时开始,我的生活里好像都环绕着做决定的时侯...
我开始对决定这两个字感到厌倦...
我开始觉得决定这两个字是离不开我的生活了...
不管小事,大事,严重,不严重,重要,不重要...
这一切都变成我的决定...
以前我总觉得做决定并不是那么可怕的,可是现在...
我的决定牵涉很多的因素...
我的决定牵涉很多的问题...
我的决定牵涉很多的感受...
我的决定牵涉很多的很多的压力.....
让我真的有喘不过气来的感觉...
应该体谅我的人却不能体谅我,
应该鼓励我的人却不懂得鼓励我,
应该安慰我的人却不懂得安慰我,
不明白我的人往往却是给我最好的帮助...
不明白我的人往往却是给我最多的安慰...
不明白我的人往往却是给我最少的压力...
这一切是应该存在的吗....?
我很努力的告诉自己这一切很快成为过去...
我很努力的告诉自己这一切只是过渡期...
我很努力的告诉自己这一切会是个挑战...
我很努力的告诉自己我要尽我的全力来把所有问题变成不是问题...
可是我的努力...
似乎不够好...
似乎不被珍惜...
那...我该如何啊...?
一个人承受的感觉真的很痛苦,很折磨...
可是我选择相信...相信我的神可以把这一切都带走...
只是时候还未到...我需要等待.........
等待奇迹...等待一切的一切............
我的决定牵涉很多的因素...
我的决定牵涉很多的问题...
我的决定牵涉很多的感受...
我的决定牵涉很多的很多的压力.....
让我真的有喘不过气来的感觉...
应该体谅我的人却不能体谅我,
应该鼓励我的人却不懂得鼓励我,
应该安慰我的人却不懂得安慰我,
不明白我的人往往却是给我最好的帮助...
不明白我的人往往却是给我最多的安慰...
不明白我的人往往却是给我最少的压力...
这一切是应该存在的吗....?
我很努力的告诉自己这一切很快成为过去...
我很努力的告诉自己这一切只是过渡期...
我很努力的告诉自己这一切会是个挑战...
我很努力的告诉自己我要尽我的全力来把所有问题变成不是问题...
可是我的努力...
似乎不够好...
似乎不被珍惜...
那...我该如何啊...?
一个人承受的感觉真的很痛苦,很折磨...
可是我选择相信...相信我的神可以把这一切都带走...
只是时候还未到...我需要等待.........
等待奇迹...等待一切的一切............
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