我真的很想你...

虽然你才在那不远的地方,可是我真的很想你...
不知是不是因为上次你去韩国的时候真的让我很担心...
所以这次我的心更是担心又想你.....
很想可以很快见到你....
很想和你通话...
还是很想很想见到你....
哎...
人总是要在分开有段距离了才会特别思念对方...
原本以为你去旅行了我就可以飞啦...呵呵...
怎么知道我的心是超级想念你....><
最近的我还是那么的乱...
也不懂乱什么...
又要开始忙碌的生活了...
也觉得身体一天比一天弱了...><
好像变的容易生病...
我...还可以吗...?
你...支持我吗...?

爱...

我爱你...你爱我...
这三个字都常听见...或是看见...
当你说爱她/他时,你真的爱她/他吗?
当你说爱她/他时,他/她也爱你吗?
当你说爱她/他时,你的心是否也如此的爱她/他?
说一句我爱你有时还真的变得很容易说出口...
但是是否真的爱对方,却又是个疑问...

一段感情里...
总是会让人流不少眼泪,同时也有不少的欢笑...
两颗被联系在一起的心;
很多时候都会塞满问号,
很多时候都会出现争吵,
很多时候都想回到原点,
很多时候都想选择放弃,
很多时候都会逃避问题,
很多时候都出现蛮不讲理,
很多时候都出现不愿让步,
很多时候...更会做错决定...
两颗来自不同血型的心;
需要去接受对方,
需要去迁就对方,
需要去体谅对方,
需要去保护对方,
需要去了解对方,
需要...好好的携手面对并接受对方...
两颗来自不同心跳的心;
总是需要时间去感受对方,
总是需要耐心去聆听对方,
总是需要心思去触摸对方...
两颗心都需要好好的保护,因为心总是脆弱的...
好好的保护这颗心,不要让心就这样轻易破碎..．
也许会觉得吵架无聊，
也许会觉得不懂得道歉，
也许会觉得很无奈...
可是...爱...就是如此的被建立起来...
不过分计较,不过分争辩,不过分发怒，
不过分在乎,不过分自私,不过分执著，
让一切都变得不过分...
也许爱就会变得如此的简单又快乐...

不知为什么最近都在思考爱情的一切...
也许是身边的朋友都遭遇问题吧...
自己也正在努力的学习...
以上纯属个人意见及看法...
希望可以帮到一些的朋友也同时在提醒自己...
但愿...乌云很快的过去,太阳很快的再次出来!!

有时

有时...疲惫的感觉真的很难受...
有时...厌倦的感觉真的很难受...
有时...寂寞的感觉真的很难受...
有时...烦恼的感觉真的很难受...
有时...憋在心中的感觉更难受...
有时...不能表达的感觉更难受...
有时...无人体会的感觉更难受...
有时...令人讨厌的感觉更难受...

此刻...我的感受更难受...
很多时候我并不奢望得到什么...
可是至少一句问候,一句安慰,总比没有来得好吧...
身边的总是说了解我,明白我,谅解我,
可是事实真的如此吗...?
我的好不被看见,
而我的不好全部都被看见...
也许我真的是如此的不好...

当你做到失去耐心的时候,
当你做的已变成很应该的时候,
当你做到最好的时候,
身旁的人都不以为意...
身旁的人都不放在心上...
身旁的人都漠不关心...
你还能撑下去吗...?你忍着了吗...?
我...还真的忍不下去了...
我...真的觉得很无奈...
难道我的状况比其他人好吗...?为什么不能体谅我...?
我做得不够好?还是不够多...?请告诉我...
我做得太少?太差?请告诉我...
为什么很多事情都还像很自然的变成我的义务?
为什么很多不属于我的责任都无形中变成我的一部分?

道歉并不是每次都有效的...
道歉是真的用心道歉吗?
道歉之后是否真的有心反省?
道歉并不代表可以把所有都忘掉..
道歉并不表示可以让自己好过些..
到底...道歉是出自于真心还是无心...?

我不再渴望得到任何的同情..
我不再渴望得到任何的回报..
我不再渴望得到任何的关心..
我不再渴望...不再理会...
因为此刻的我真的觉得很厌倦...
当你真正感觉到心灰意冷的时候...
你就能感觉到我此刻的感受.........

today...

today...is a day that i dont know how to describe my feelings again..
yea...i guess everyone already get used with it that my feelings-on n off!
well...today...quite busy...tired...as usual..

today...
me and classmates makan ban mee...why i mention it?coz..it's make me think about my ex..
i still remember that ban mee restaurent is the place that i first had dinner with him n others friend..
i remember that i feel super gan jiong that time,coz i knew that i already have that kind of feelings on him...
n today...it's just weird that when i step into the ban mee restaurent,
all the songs are there...all the love songs that i love it before we broke up..
it just make me think about him...
n no doubt,all the memories are back to my mind,but im clear with myself that im not loving him anymore..
just suddenly think about him,n i know he is doing great in the other side =)
sometimes i was laughing myself that being that silly,cry like siao when we break...lol..
but i learned something...i should thanks to him bah...
which is...if the one i love doesn't belong to me,i should just let him go..
n yea...when i let him go,i know im deserved for a better one =D
please dont missunderstanding about my post...
im not saying that i still love my ex or what k...
just want to express my feelings..
recently i just dont feel like talking that much..
so...just allowed me to blog it ya....
and actually i hope a friend of mine will read this,
which is.. is not wrong to be nice to the one that you like or love,
but sometimes...we need to be clear with the situation...
if the guy you love doesn't love you at all,please awake and accept it..
when you letting it go,your life is going to be better n happier =)
don't waste your time on a guy that doesn't love you at all..
it's not worth at all...

here im going to talk about my bf ...
my bf,is a musician...crazy with electronice guitar =)
he is the one that make me feel love can be that simple...
he is the one that always bear with my bad temper...
he is the one that simple n nice...
he is not the perfect one,that's why he needs me =P
n of coz im not the perfect one too,that's why i needs him too =D
when two persons that with different background met each other,
what they going to do is try to understand n accept each other...
and then they will slowly get to know each other and started to face alots of problem..
because...they are from different background and they are not the perfect one...
what i want to say is actually about me n the one i love...
we are from different background,with different personality..
that's why we having differentt point of view....
im learning to accept everything...
sometimes,we really dont have time to each other...
thou we cant see each other that often anymore..
but i know it's not going to influence our relationship..
im learning to be more independent...
im trying my best not to think that negative..
im trying my best not to neglect your feelings..
i just hope...everything will be fine...
i just hope...everyday is a new day for us....
i just want...you to know that...
i want to love you more and more...

oops..im getting tired n tired..blur and blur ad..
signing off~~

季节

季节又来到了我的身旁....
最近的天气的确时常在下雨...
每当在下雨时独自驾车,总会有寂寞的感觉...
再加上最近身边的朋友甚至是自己也碰上了''季节''...
说明了是季节嘛,当然是避不开了...
唯有看自己要不要选择用"雨伞"去保护自己...
还是要被季节把自己也给跨到...
好像有点语无伦次...
可是此刻的我真的有这种感觉...
觉得身边的事情都像季节般的...
说来就来,让人毫无防备之心...
不管平时是多么的坚强,也会有被季节攻击的时候...
不管平时是多么的镇定,也会有被季节吓倒的时候...
不管平时是多么的安稳,也会有被季节震动的时候...
季节是否为你带来开心呢?还是为你带来伤心?

人总是那么的矛盾...
当他或她需要你的时候,他或她必定定时定刻的寻找你...
因为你是他或她的代替品...
当他或她不需要你的时候,他或她必定减少寻找你...
因为你真的是他或她的代替品..
也许这一切都是正常的吧...可是对我来说却不是...
我不想让别人成了我的代替品,更不希望成为别人的代替品...
所以...学习不矛盾,不自私,不存任何心机是很重要的...
若你的生活里总是带有心机的,处处去博取别人的可怜;
那我真的觉得你的生活是可悲的...
因为你总是在依赖别人,根本没有为自己着想...
也没有为身边的人着想...

最近的我心情又来起伏不定了...
我好像又迷失了方向.....
该向左还是向右呢...?
该选择面对还是逃避呢...?
该选择包容还是伤害呢...?
该尝试还是放弃呢...?
我要的是....什么啊.....

是时候睡觉了...语无伦次到一个程度.... >.<

im officially missing you...

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go
'Cause this pain I feel, it won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I've fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
That I-I'm officially missing you

Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...

It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin' you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I'm officially missin' you

thanks for mimi coz send me this song..
it's really a good way to describe my feelings right now..
driving back alone all the time...
everytime i wish that the one that beside me is you...
and today..it's rainiy day...
after all the discussion has been done smoothly...
is time to home...on the way home,this song playing repeatly...
all the memories keep on appeared in my mind..
what's on your mind right now...?
will it be the same like me...?

im officially missing you....

im still alive!

i'm still alive =P
semester break for 2 weeks...
the 2 weeks holiday was like d-e-a-d holiday for me man >< omg!
because dont have time to meet up with my friendssss!!
the one thing i feel happy is went up to cameron with elaine,gina n liang!wuhoo!
what a nice place n a good time for me n myself...
thanks for liang to be the driver =)
although is 2D1N,but it's ad enough for me..
the fresh air make me feel better n is like recharge my brainsss ^^
after cameron trip,is time for me to start working at a friend's place..
data entry,phone calling,everyday i repeart the same thing...
what to do...i need vitamin M so so so much...
dad's cant work anymore...i need to take k of myself...
can't spend much anymore...
aikz,quite suffer when looking friends around me spend with no worries..
but still...thanks God for blessing me...
sometimes when i really really have no $ at all,
brother or some part time job will comes to me...
nice right?pray hard n you will get this too...
although i cant buy any new clothes that on sales,but then...
still ok bah...at least im not naked ma XD hahaha
just...cant control when think about food!!omg..
spend much on food n movie >.<
need to control ad...
work for almost 10 or 13 days for the data entry job..
then busy in helping a church member's wedding...
feel happy and touching when the couple are walking into the church,
holding each other hand,put the super sweet smile on their face,
the music n lighting is on n everything just perfect....
with the blessing from all of the family and friends...
so niceee =)
yea la,i admit that i got the feeling of 'hen ga' la...
cant stop thinking about my future...lol..
when can i hold my husband's hand ...
when can i have my own family with 3 to 4 children..
hahaha...those that know me ad knew that this is my plan XD
dear lord,i pray that u will bless me to have a good husband n healthy children!AMEN!
oh yea..we celebrate elaine aka my best friend/classmate in the world birthday!!!
it's a super belated celebration,but hope u like it ya my dear!!
thank u ah liang for helping me to buy ur gf's present =)
thou there is no more purple colour,but still got the brown one =P
n yea..all the daipat gang (except daipat hao) gather at a place for preparation..
haha..yea,prepared for the tang lung that we going to light up..
that's the surprise for the belated birthday girl!!wuhoo..
we standby in front of her house,then call her out,n we sing the bday song!!haha
dear ar,although the plan got a bit bocor ad la..hahhaa...
but then hope u like it n forgive us for the late celebration ya..
finally u got ur own and nice purse to use ad =) all the best for u!!
there is no full stop in our friendship =)
well...after all of these...fun,work,wedding,celebration...
the 2nd semester started!!meaning that ASSIGNMENTS waiting me!!
the most thing that i worry for now is results man..
lord,i pray that everyone of us can get all pass!!bless us!!
well,1st week as usual is no class one..
me n elaine skipped the class and work at klcc convention center for the jewelry fair =P
worked for 4 days,11 to 6pm..too bad that cant work at the same counter with elaine..
but still having fun and it's another experience for us =)
working with hong kong people,see the way they handle the work,
the way they solve the problem,the way they talk...
nice to meet you all =) take care ya~~
is time to get myself prepared and attending class as a good student XD
lecture...tutorial...practical...lots of assignment lorrr ><
new lecturer n tutor teaching us...still haven get used with them...
some of them are funny,lame,bored...can we tahan for the 14 weeks?!
just hope that everything can go smooth...
and the results will be fine...
yea..that's all for my current life...
quite tired actually...driving here n there alone...><
what to do..life still goes on...n yea..im still alive!!
dear dai pat gang...please take good care ya!!
im sure that the yamcha session is going to re-start SOON XD
dear shapo hsia,please sleep earlier n take k too k...
we will go play play with the juvin n take a lot of picture XD