You are my Father...

i wish i dare to just give a hug to my dad..

i wish i dare to say i forgive you and i love you dad...

everytime i pray,i told myself that i will forgive and love him...

but how many times i failed...

i can't even talk nicely to you...

i feel the pain in my heart...

i feel the anger in my heart...

i know i might have no chance to do it someday...

i might feel regret...

but i really can't control myself...

look at others family,the way they communicate with their parents,

the way they share God's loves among each other...

i wish i can do it too...

but i can't even take the first move...

i just wish to say i want to accept you...

when i listen to this song...You are my Father...

it's doesn't matter where i run You're there for me,

it's doesn't matter what I've done Your love's for me,

You wipe away the tears,You lift me when i fall,

My life is safe by the mercy of your grace,

it's doesn't matter where i go You walk with me,

it's doesn't matter when i fall You cover me,

You wipe away the tears,You lift me when i fall,

My life is safe by the mercy of your grace,

You are my Father,Provider,You're my Deliverer,

Your mercies embrace me,surround me,

through Your everlasting love,

Father I worship you,Father I worship You,

and Your love is for me,Your love is for me,

and Your love is forever...

dear Father in the heaven,

i pray hard that my life can become a light that can lead and guides my family and friends with Your love...

i pray that i can forgive my dad as You've forgive all my sins...

i just pray that my words can reach You there...

and Your words will be in my heart as forever...

i just need Your strength to walk through it...Amen

i know i will be fine...

when you want to point on me...
please come to me...
i will admit my fault and do changes...
but to deal and settle the problem there is always a way...
i did feel hurt in my heart...
i don't know how to face it after all...
i'm just a normal human being,i do have my own feelings too...
don't think you are the only one that will feel bad...
the sad thing i saw from there is people never admit their bad...
why?i don't understand why...why they can't see there is a problem?
but turn a big round,still is my fault...
what else can i say?
sometimes i pray that if there is other choice for me,
i will pray that God will show me the way to the right place..
maybe the place right now doesn't belong to me?
maybe the people right there are not really suitable for me?
i really feel like giving up sometimes...heart broken...
felt apart,and felt apart,got back up again and again...
and still there are many things happening around...
i'm glad that through out the camp,
God show me the way...i feel better...
but still i know there are people that started to changed to way they used to be..
i can feel it although they didn't tell me..
because from the way they talk,the way they act...
i already know...the feelings of being rejected is there...
but i keep telling myself that everything is fine..
i know i will be fine as long as i face it...
because i still got friends that belong to me,
true friends that be with me...
and the one that always be with me all the time..
i feel thankful that you always be with me...
everyday,every moment,you will be there to cheer me up..
thanks for your understanding...
thanks for your words...
i pray that someday you will feel the love of my God =)