don't know...

i don't know what i want for now...
i don't know what the feelings right now...
i don't know who can really understand me right now..
i don't know which way should i move on...
i don't know what the hell is going on....
i don't know when will the season ends....
i don't know...seriously don't know...
i really don't know?or...i don't want to know...?
i can feel that there is something wrong...
but again...i don't know how to help myself to get the solution...
everytime when friends are having problem,i can give a lot of advice..
but then...for this second,i really don't know what and how to face it...
all i know is...im so so so so so so so so sorry....
thousand of sorry in my heart......
all is because my bad...my fault...

aikz...

again...i don't know what i want for now...
what's wrong with me????
i really...don't know how to deal with my feelings...
which make me feel fear.....aikz..
when-why-where-these all happened....
am i really know what i actually want for now and future??
i seriously.....don't know how to move for now...
please..........save me out of here.................>.<

what can i do to make everyone happy?

sometimes...
i really feel hard to breath when everyone around me are keep on pushing me;
sometimes....
i really feel pain in my heart when no one can really feel me when things happend;
sometimes....
i really feel fear to people around me because i dont know when they will attack me;
sometimes....
i really dont know how to use my brain and words to make things better;
sometimes....
i dont know what to do to make everyone happy...

there are too many things that keep challenge me...
there are too many words that keep hurting me...
there are too many people that keep pushing me...
i cant feel the fresh air anymore...
not to say i make my life grey but dont try to judge me if you dont even understand about my situation,not everytime things can be solve that easy by using 'dont think too much' ...
i have to face it,i have to bear with it...
i feel tired or even feel sick when people around me keep asking me not to be that negative,do you really know how hard is it?do you really feel how pain is it?do you really want to help me out?

i just a normal human being....
i just want to be a normal bei er,cheerful bei er,
useful bei er,lovely bei er,i just want to be myself..that's it!!
what i need is space...fresh air...
please think about my feelings...
please stop forcing me to accept the way you are...
people always forgot to use full stop in their life..
people always want to make things complicated..
w-h-y
i feel tired,why they never feel tired at all...
i feel pain deep in my heart,why they cant feel me at all..
im trying hard not to care about it..
im trying my best to control myself..
but what i get ?
i just want everything to be normal..
i just want to stop everything...can you all just stop...?

4am...

the time right now is 4AM...apa saya buat ka sini??
1st,juz now makan n minum NESLO,make me cant really sleep..haha...
2nd,play zombies game,make me gan jiong dao cannot sleep..hehe...
3rd,which is when i plan to stop game n facebook,i saw DA ZHONG aka JOHNSON online..
then i nudge him,thought he sleep ad de,but he reply me..so webcam him to let him see my pretty face XD wakaka..chat with him almost an hour ad,long long time no chat..really miss u la =) sorry ar da zhong,make u sleep late,later still need to work..haha..but i really feel happy to chat with this da zhong,bcoz he really ada read blog saya de wor XD suan ni you xin la haha..
laugh ha laugh ha,talk ha talk ha..still cant make me feel sleepy @@
4rd,finish read jerry n dph's blog..lol..make me feel...want to blog also =P

my feelings right now is...
i feel worry about my darl's final which is tomorrow,coz he din really study de lor,n super steady..i really pray hard tat he can answer well during exam...miss him right now...juz now langsung tak cook porridge with him,coz he really tired ad,so i just talk about 5 minutes then ask him to sleep ad...so not me la..haha...normally no matter what i also will talk n talk with him bcoz...wan to train him not to sleep tat early XD wakaka...
i feel worry about myself juga...haih...final coming soon,n i really really feel lost on this semester..
feel like advanced macam betul betul tak suit saya...how ar?should i quite?
is like...everyone around me dont have the heart to go for class...
recently,i skip n skip class...sometimes go for some lecture class also go alone..
why everything not like last time ad de?i still rmb during diploma,we all will go for class...
although skip also go out from lecture hall n talk...i miss that time...
although we dont like the class,we still sleep inside the class...i miss that time..
but now...dunno why n since when...everyone macam tak suka all of these ad..
everyday discussing about skip which class,where to eat...lol..make me growing fatter ad la =(
seriously need to control my meal n diet....i wan to SWIM eh...i belum habis learning swim!!
haih...no one free to teach me.....@@ i scared if i go alone then will die in the pool..lol!!
i wish i can swim like a others,then i can go swim by myself...haih...
family prob seems like ok a bit ad...but then dad's health is not tat ok...
pray that he will be fine....i know he feel suffering also...but i just can pray for him..

recently really feel lost about my future...
feel disappointed to myself when i din really give the best in studies...
haih.......whats wrong with me...>.<
finally..i feel sleepy ad ~ yuhoo~luan luan blog yuan lai can make me feel sleepy =P
goodnite.......

爱真的需要勇气...

爱...真的需要勇气...
今天驾着车的时候突然听见这首歌...
让我有很大的感触...
爱...的确需要勇气..
需要勇气来面对流言蜚语...
需要勇气来面对一切的挑战..
需要勇气来面对一切...一切...一切...
当你和爱的人面对着问题的时候...
真正需要的也许是勇气吧...
没有了勇气就会失去方向...
没有了勇气就会失去对方...
很多时候,生命里的问题总是没有想象中的完美...
我不能说生命里完全不会有完美的一天...
是会有完美的一天的..只是我们都需要勇气来付出,等待...

很多时候我们都没有勇气说出口...
很多时候我们都没有勇气表达自己...
很多时候我们都没有勇气接受事实...
很多时候我们都没有勇气拒绝它人...
太多的时候,我们都没有勇气...
太多的时候,就因为没有勇气而失去了重要的东西...

每段情都需要勇气...
亲情,友情,爱情...这一些几乎都成为了生命里的一部分...
当亲情遇见了困难的时候,
我们需要勇气来一起解决...
当友情遇见了误会的时候,
我们需要勇气来表达并解决...
当爱情遇见了争执的时候,
我们需要勇气来原谅及包容对方...

每段感情都会遭遇问题...
亲情,友情,爱情...几乎都会被问题围绕着...
当亲情出现问题时,
我们往往都不想去面对他们,讨厌他们...
当友情出现问题时,
我们往往都选择沉默,然后误会就会不断产生...
当爱情出现问题时,
我们往往都选择争吵或逃避,久而久之爱就渐渐淡了...
为何我们不选择坦然面对并且简单的解决呢？

一对情侣,也许无法得到别人的赞同或不被看好;
但是是勇气让他们继续相爱及守护对方...
一对情侣,也许经常都要面对很多很多的闲话;
但是是勇气让他们去肯定自己的决定...
而我...我真的希望我和你是带着勇气来面对未来的路...
太多的闲言话语让我觉得很累...
我需要的是你的肯定...你也需要我的扶持...
我只希望我们的感情真的是属于我们两人的世界的...
我好希望我们可以有一周年,十周年,二十周年,三十,直到很久很久...
未来的路一点都不容易走...
但我的心和手决定和你的心和手紧握一起的走到尽头...
也许读的人觉得我有很傻的想法,可是这就是我的想法...
不管别人怎么说我,或是觉得我们的感情无法长久;
我只知道我爱的人是你...
也许我们发生争吵,但是我知道争吵后的我们是更珍惜彼此的...
我愿意承受一切...更愿意面对一切的问题...
你...感受到我的心意吗....？

你让我感受到爱是如此的简单=)