感触..

无意间读了别人的部落格...
让我再次的有所感触...
以下一切都是出自于自己的突然而来的感受...
如有类同存属意外 =P

爱情总是让人爱得疯狂,也让人爱得伤痕累累...
爱情对我来说仿佛是在上课似的,
一段感情里的两个人要学习如何的接受彼此的缺点,
总是要学习怎样才可以做到最好的,
总是要学习如何来维持这段感情...
有些人会好好的学习,好好的珍惜彼此...
可是人往往在学习的中途就放弃了,
而选择放弃的同时也许就是对另一半残忍,
但是选择放弃究竟是因为真的不想继续学习下去了吗?
选择放弃是为了让大家都好过点吗?
还是因为自己的心里面无法再容纳眼前的那个呢...?
有时还真的觉得矛盾...
爱情总是会让人觉得想要得到它,
可是却也是让人想拒绝或放弃它...
当爱情来临时,那种感觉真的会让人开心忘怀...
可是当爱情离去时,那种感觉还真的让人痛不欲生...
有些人甚至因为无法接受失去对方的感觉而选择伤害自己;
难道伤害自己就能能留住对方的心吗?
难道伤害自己就能证明自己真的有很爱对方吗?
曾经我以为伤害自己就能让对方觉得内疚,
可是我庆幸到最后的我没有这样做,
因为我终于明白伤害自己是件愚昧的事...
这让我更不能体会为爱情而伤害自己身体的感受,
我只是觉得为了爱情而失去理智是很傻的行为...
我觉得能爱过一个人或被一个人爱过已经是很幸福了;
至少这世界上曾经有人让自己学会如何去珍惜别人,
曾经有人珍惜过自己,那不已经足够了吗...?
拥有爱情的时候就好好享受在一起的感觉;
分开的时候就拿出勇气让这一切都成过去吧...

有本书是这样写的:
[别为离别伤感,因为从一个更大的角度来看,
就算你与他隔得再远,终究也还是在同一片水域;
所以,若是这份缘份注定还有后续,
日后总有一天,你与他必定会在水上再次相遇...]
我很赞同这番话,你呢..?

friendship =)

i upload picture randomly~
this is our 3 days 2 nights langkawi trip =)
although is not enough time to have more fun,but i really feel happy to be with u guys!

while we are waiting...

first time i can fly =P

when we arrived =) our gang~

my mom =D

my dearest hercules XD

yup!that's me ^.<

just the three of us =)

and that is four of us ^^

itulah 1st time there were so many fishy geli my leg =P

when deer meet beer~

mun ee-amber-bei er

is time to say goodbye >.<

E1 lelaki =)

E1 perempuan =)


cute da zhong with the van that accompany us for 3 days ^^

L-A-N-G-K-A-W-I

all of us~~

yea yea,6,7,8th of MAY!!that's our trip,after this,we all going to say goodbye to each other and start our new life..
all i can say is...guys,no matter where are we going,what are we going to do,i will never ever forget you all...is not easy to build a friendship,sekelip mata we already know each other for 2 years..lol XD
we know each other goods and bads,we tolerate with each other,we argued before,we work hard together,we play together,we eat together,we laugh together,we also cry before..
there are so many things that happened in our life,
we saw alot of things,we also learned alot of things,
the most important is...we know each other =)
love you guys!cheers for our better and wonderful life ^^

to my friend that going to leave M'sia,wish you all the best and take good care of yourself k?
i felt down when i heard about this,but i know that is your life,that's your decision.
i never feel regret to know you,although i don't have the chance to sit down and talk to you anymore like previous,but still i hope you can be happy and healthy all the time...
all i can do is wish you all the best and hope you can still put your smile on your face everyday when you spending time with your friends...take care ya =)
[good friends are hard to find,hard to leave and impossible to forget!]

to daipat gang...please don't think that i already forget you guys k..
i really wanted to find you guys,just the timing not right...please forgive me..
don't think that i just want my bf but forget you all k...
going to find you guys out for yamcha and we will siao together k?
jerry,spend more time with your gf ar =P jiahao,wait we yamcha then we talk about our trip experience ya!
zhenghao,you always chat with me in msn,but long time no see ad,wait my call ya!
zhang yi,the most busy person in the gang i think,play basketball all the time,pls take k urself too ya!
xin zhi,the old man also the one that always complain sien at home,lol,don't worry,next time i won't choose UMA for yamcha,you don't have to worry k =)
and..my dearest jimui,elaine!i know you are suffering now because of skin sensitiveness,hope you can recover soon ya!there is nothing much i can do but i will pray for you,miss u here eh >.<

to my jimuisss aka amoi sekalian,i will not forget you girls geh..hehehe
next time we swim again ya!i will learn how to relax geh =)
yee,i hope you can be happy allllll the time with the one you love!
hsia,i hope you can open your heart and we will sing 'beijing welcome you' wahaha XD you know what i mean la=P
misua,you better find your swim suit and join us next time ar!no more ffg!!!

phew...suddenly feel want to post this blog to remind myself that i still got alot of friends that accompany me all the time =) i will not forget you guys!!!no matter where we are going,you guys always in my heart!!
really really happy to know you all as my buddy and ji mui ^^
lastly,to my dear darling,you must be strong k?i will always support you,no matter how busy you are,i will always wait until you done everything,then i will lend my ears to you...i love you =)

该如何...

该如何...?我不断的在问自己...
问了好多遍...我还是找不到答案...
原来当事情来到一个地步的时候,有些决定是非做不可的...
不管你喜不喜欢,你都还是要去想,还是要做个决定...
而我...真的无法决定,更不知道该如何做决定...
事情看来不那么的可怕,可是它却让我觉得可怕...
事情看来不那么的严重,可是我知道其实是很严重...
事情看来并不难决定,可是我真的感到难以决定...
在做决定前,必须要顾虑很多方面的存在...
我不想伤害到别人,更不想伤害自己...
我不想让别人难过,更不想自己也感到难过...
我真的觉得好难受...
我多么的希望这一切就像在发恶梦一样,睡醒了就会没事...
我多么的希望这一切可以不发生在我身上...
但是事实就是事实,我始终还是要面对....
只是...我真的好想选择逃避....
我不知道该如何面对...
可以...允许我暂时选择逃避吗....
我不知道该如何决定...

你说过的话我都记得,我都明白...
我知道我该对我们俩有信心,
我也知道你真的会支持我...
只是如今的我也还搞不清我要的是什么...
我的心真的很心痛,我原本以为可以独自承受,
可是却让你也难过起来了...对不起...

im going to miss u...

"why take so long de?i am so hungry la =P "

"okla..let u take 1 pic XD "

finally...is time for us =)

finally,i can meet with you =) i was so so so happy!!
although just can have dinner with you for 2 hours,but better than don't have =P
is good to see you,love to see your smile and silly face XD
im going to miss you...but nvm,just few days only..hehe..
after trip,we can watch movie together =)
darling,you must take good care of yourself k...
i will always miss you and love you ^^
sometimes we argue,sometimes we throw temper to each other..
sometimes we can't see each other that often,sometimes we facing some problem..
but relationships doesn't grow by being happy everyday,but by surviving challeges and difficult time right?i always remind myself about this because i really want a long lasting relationship,it's sound silly,but for me,you are so diffrent,people may not understand,but i know and i will hold you tight =)
i love you *mwah*

FINALLY!!

the first finally will be...i'm FINALLY free from work =)
thanks to sze yee,liwen,n shi man for introduce and work with me!
the second finally will be...i'm FINALLY get my first swim suit on my life =)
thanks for mun ee and elaine to accompany me and choose for me!
(i will try to fall in love with all the 'small balls") lolxx XD

im worked as Sunkist promoter at setiawangsa,giant for three days..
the place really killing me man!!
the giant,is not GIANT at all...small little supermarket,and they place us work under the hot wheater!wt...$#@$##@$ no place for us to have our rest during the break time!really peik ceik!!
i need to wear the ORANGE uniform that really makes me looked like an ORANGE!gosh..
orange uniform,orange cap,plus a pair of ASADI shoes...i never wear those full uniform for work!
this is my first time also will be the last time for Sunkist,because the uniform was ugly!argh!!
because of my size,i can't really wear that uniform lor...shit!!i have to diet ad la!haih!
my leg get sprained because of this...and also sensitive >.<
i never felt that suffer and peik ceik before...
but what to do?need money man!haih...

anyway,im now FREE from that place..and im waiting for langkawi trip ^.^
although can't go to the place that i really wish to go..but as long as can go pulau to have fun then enough already la =P and i can get chocolate for myself,family,friends and of course my darling =)
yea yea!i got my first swim suit today!!wuhoo!thanks to my mother which is mun ee and my dear friend,elaine!mun ee was accompany me for the second time to find my swim suit,and finally today we went midvalley and i found it =) i think...is ok for everyone to accept gua...><> swim =)

back to my life...well...holiday was started...
i was really really out of vitamin 'M'...haih,all my wishes cannot be true already..
i really need some job which is can work for weekdays..hope i can found it after the trip..
need to pray hard for it and i really hope that my family problem can be solve as soon as possible..
also hope that my result can be all pass...and i can continue study with my friends...
my darling also started his degree in the semester which is busy life for him..
he need to study also need to work,i just hope that we can still meet up once a week,just two of us..i just hope everything will be fine although we don't have that much of time to meet up...
i miss daipat gang too...some of them was still having exam,hope we yamcha soon =)
my jimui also..need to meet up with them after the siaopo back from beijing =)
phew...tired already la..need to have some rest now..
chocolate!here i come ~~wuhoo!!miss my classmates too~see u guys soon!